By request from my dear friend Elaine R.
From Alchemy of the Goddess by Jeanette Amlie
Signs of Spiritual Awakening?
Midlife Crisis or Transformation? It is also amazing how many of the people I work with are women in their middle years. So often the instability of hormonal imbalance is a direct catalyst for the “pressure cooker” of repressed energy to begin to crack the vessel. Although this can certainly be a painful & scary time, that view can be transformed when one begins to see that there is meaning & potential benefit in the experience.
The list below is by no means comprehensive or definitive. Yet the reports of people who have been through this kind of experience share so many of these “symptoms” that it is difficult not to take notice.
- Feeling as if you are in a pressure cooker or in intense energy.
- Depression – or feeling like things are never going to get better.
- Anxiety, panic and feelings of hysteria – often related to the ego sensing it’s imminent demise.
- Diarrhea, constipation and Irritable Bowel Syndrome – The digestive system is directly linked to the autonomic nervous system and responds to fight, flight and freeze responses.
- Heart pain and palpitations – the heart is literally “opening” through calcified layers of conditioning and repression. But get it checked if symptoms resemble a heart attack. Most often they will say you have a healthy heart, but it’s good to be reassured & take no chances!
- Emotional ups and downs, weeping and sensitivity – emotions are the key to the heart which often expands significantly during conscious awakening.
- Heightened sensitivity to surroundings including noise, electricity, food and other stimulus.
- Hot or cold flashes – many symptoms can mock menopause.
- Unusual aches and pains throughout different parts of your body.
- Energy & sensations in lower back, sacrum & spine. Sexual energy & spiritual awakening often intermingle as the Kundalini energy may begin to move up the spine from the base of the nervous system in the perineum.
- Migraines can sometimes be linked to old held trauma patterns as well as shifting or conflicting beliefs.
- Temporary recurrence of old conditions from earlier in life as the body works to clear them.
- Skin eruptions, acne, rashes, hives & boils – the skin is a major organ for eliminating toxins.
- Blurred vision and eye irritation – related to “3rd Eye” 6th Chakra activity as well as the fire of kundalini.
- Waking at night between 2 and 4 am – various theories for this common symptom, including our unconscious connection with greater knowing during these nocturnal hours than our conscious state often allows.
- Night sweats and hot flashes – body literally burning off denser energies and toxins.
- Extreme cold with inability to get warm – Often can follow a time of intense shifting & be a sign of possible dissociation when we are confronting old trauma patterns in order to release them.
- Struggle to follow usual routines and activities – old coping skills & discipline not working.
- Extreme fatigue and lethargy – possibly related to the body re-creating itself through tissue die-off and regeneration. Parasympathetic dominant activity of “rest and repair”.
Upon reading this piece by Jeanette Amlie, I realized that some of these signs she refers to as a spiritual awakening can be also deemed as characteristics of Fibromyalgia. One cannot limit what is referred to as a spiritual awakening as strictly menopausal in nature as there are just as many men that are attaining a level of spiritual awakening in the world as I type this.
In my own personal experience I would describe ” a spiritual awakening” as a deeper awareness of myself and the world. A time in which one sees things with more clarity and with a sense of inner peace. One does not need to be experiencing menopausal type symptoms to be in this state. I attribute much of my spiritual awakening to reaching a certain stage in my life in which I am seeking more personal fulfillment. I am not one to find material possessions fulfilling nor do I seek affirmation from the outside world. I am exploring more of myself regarding wants and needs. Most of us will go through this stage at some point. I prefer the term enlightenment as I have experienced many of those and enlightenment is an on-going process it does not manifest itself completely overnight.
Some of the symptoms that Jeanette details I have questioned at times. The waking at 2 am, the weeping ( which may be grief or loss of dreams, & failed expectations), the heightened sensitivity to surroundings including noise, and other stimuli along with feeling extremely cold and being unable to get warm.
Enlightenment can be more then what Amlie describes, an awareness of a situation, letting go of something that is no longer beneficial to our well – being, perhaps a trauma or bad memory. It might be choosing to live in peace and walking away from adversity, choosing your battles more wisely. Whatever you see it as being as it is a truly personal experience.
I challenge you the reader, to share your experiences with us so we can all attain a greater understanding of this period of change.